Hello.
What a day.
QT was spent with our new cells,
Grace is in charge of mine,
hmm, my cousin,
HAHAHAS! Feels rather weird.
After church, went to ps to meet chikopek,
cause her church is at YMCA,
we got dreanched from running from smu to ps.
Seriously drenched.
After that, Dianne, Rachael, Zhijun, Daniel and Jonathan,
joined us,
Dianne is mad about some starthub guy,
and the lunch in KFC was rather *ahem ahem XD
After that, went tcc to study,
whose idea?!
went out to eat with my uncle after that,
oh man, my uncle is dman cool.
He is some guy in the military defence wing for Singapore,
then recently Singapore just bought this tank-like vehicle,
WHICH IS VERY COOL.
He showed us the video,
which tells us how to use it,
heh, although it's restricted XD
Bryna's grandpa had a heart attack,
I hope he is okay.
Anyway, this post is dedicated to my most loved ah ma,
who passed away on 031098,
two days before I turned 7.
Cause today, Grace shared about how she think that,
God IS real, and she talked about my ah ma, our ah ma.
I missed her, so so so much.
She passed away cause of stomach cancer,
which she fought for two years.
I was still young then, I only know she went for an operation,
then after two years,
when I was six, one week before she past away,
nobody told me she had cancer,
nobody told me, she was gonna leave me,
cause I was still a young child.
One day, my mum was crying, she told me,
I'll never get to talk to ah ma again.
My ah ma is so dear to me,
she took care of me when I was young,
cause both my parents were working,
we lived at Ang Mo Kio,
I moved to Hougang at four years old.
Those times at Ang Mo Kio were the happiest part of my life,
cause ah ma was beide me.
When I was young,
I told my ah ma everything,
she seems to be my mother,
cause I seldom see my mum,
I followed ah ma everywhere, even to the market,
ever since I moved,
we'll visit her every week,
ever since she past away,
I don't tell people about why I'm sad and stuff like that anymore,
cause when she past away,
nobody cared about my feelings,
I was just there alone to face everything,
cause I was only a child, 7 years old,
they told me I'll see her soon,
it feels like ages,
I forgot how her voice sounded like,
I only remember the way she smiled.
The way she loved me.
Since young, I grew up being sheltered by her love,
she 'protected' me from my mum,
I told her everything.
I always remember her smiling.
I remember she used to love chestnuts,
but today, I found out from my dad,
that she alsways eats it because,
it'll not have side effects.
I always see her walking around,
singing 'Jesus loves me',
today Grace told me,
she walks around singing that,
cause she is in pain,
so she drinks morphine.
Although she is sick,
she still insisted in going to Church,
Zhijun,
your ah ma's one of my my ah ma's bestest friend.
I bet you didn't know that.
Although my ah ma don't know how to read or write,
she knows many languages,
even malay and all the dialects.
She really a woman of God,
and I love her.
Dear ah ma,
I still remember the times,
when I was young,
I wanted to escape from your canings,
so I hid unfer the bed, and fell asleep there.
I still remember that you don't eat cheese,
but slowly, after me and mum started to coax you to eat it,
you loved cheese.
But you still refused to eat beef.
I still remember the way you smiled,
the way you'll look at me with love in your eyes,
the way you so strongly believe in God,
even in times of sufferings and great pain,
I miss you so so so so so so so much.
I heard from dad that you're creamated near Maris stella,
I want to go there someday,
and I still remember where your ashes are kept.
Ah ma, I love you.
